This was the most unforgotten experience in Vipassana meditation retreat for me. This happened on Day 7. Days before was nothings weird with my sleeping. After I did well on the walking meditation, after I started to enjoy my daily life meditation because my movement became slow naturally, after I did 1,5 hours sitting meditation … at night when I tried to sleep … I start to feel many sensations on my body. Too intense that made me cannot sleet at all. It was start from my eyes. It was feel like burning, especially on the right eyes. Every time I closed my eyes I can feel my was moving all around, my eyes muscle was hurting. I tried to relax and observe all like the teacher said. Then I can feel that I almost felt to sleep but awake less than a second after, it was happened over and over again. I felt the muscle behind my head was contraction, every time I realized it and make it relax then it contracted again, over and over…Then I just decided to open my eyes and let all happen. Until I heard the wake up bell … Continue reading Sleep Time
This one is a challenge also. How can I do everything in meditation state .. Hmmmm …
First practice is to realize and to divide i activities into several movements, then focus on the movements. It was started with the drinking process … the first view days only the drinking process … others activities, yes I did it slowly, and be mindful of the movements but still cannot see every single move. So I was only trying to move slowly … that’s it, no more
The more I enjoy and understand about the other meditation practice (the walking and sitting meditation), along with that the less I was trying to move slowly. But the I realized that I cannot move unconsciousness anymore. My hands, head and other parts of my body was feel heavier. So I really need to focus and concentrate to do something. To move them. Like when I was doing the walking meditation the I feel thirsty … I need to see my bottle first the think to reach it, when I try to move my arm it was heavy and it was like I can feel the wind that touched my arm when moving. I didn’t have to make my hand move slowly, it was already move slowly it self. so so slow. That I can see it move, like when I dance very slow I need to feel the movement. Like that … Hmmm I know maybe my explanation not to brief Continue reading The Daily Life Meditation
Sorry for the late late late post. I’ve been trough some big change in my life. So I will finish all this post about my retreat today.
This time I would like to share you about my experience in sitting meditation on Vipassana meditation retreat. My sitting meditation was not easy tough. Starting only for 15 minutes and gradually raise, then there were and up and down also. My hardest challenge is to stay focus on the subject that dominant without falling sleepy and fall asleep during the process.
The first 3 days I can only did it for about 15 minutes the I started feeling sleepy, sometimes felt to sleep also … I also felt sore and pain on my back and my legs in a short time. I felt not comfortable with my body, but felt more uncomfortable with my mind. My mind was so wild and fast moving. When I started to aware on it, it already change again. It was not easyyyyy …. need a lot of patience and will power ….
After my first interview and received some advises and Gradually I can raise my sitting meditation’s time. around half and hour. The soreness and the pain on my legs also reduced. I was able to handle it longer. I started to be able to be aware, recognize and observe the mind. The wondering mind, the thinking mind, the calculating mind, dreaming, the paling mind, etc. And it gets better and better. But I still felt the sleepiness even it was not as strong as before.I was able to stay focus on the movement of the abdomen longer. Beside that I can felt other main object also that are sitting and touching (the feeling when my hands touch my knees).Beside that I started recognize other object like cold, bored, emptiness, light, hot, pulse, etc. Continue reading Sitting Meditation
Ok … let’s start it.
The walking meditation best done about 1 hour before the sitting meditation. So start with walking meditation then finish with sitting meditation. And when we already stop on our sitting meditation follow again with walking and so on.
On Walking Meditation our main object is the movement of our legs. We should make mental notes in every object that we focus on, be mindful in every single things. Starting with 2 steps, left-right, left-right … for about 10 minutes then follow with 3 steps, lifting – pushing – dropping, lifting – pushing – dropping … for about 20 minutes then 5 steps for the rest, lifting – pushing – dropping – touching – pressing, lifting – pushing – dropping – touching – pressing. When we already able to see the movement the we can upgrade to 6 steps, lifting – pushing – dropping – touching – feeling – pressing. The to the final 7 steps, intending – lifting – pushing – dropping – touching – feeling – pressing. Our movement gradually become slower and slower. We start the walking meditation by mindful of our standing position (standing – standing – standing), then be mindful on the intention to start walking (intending – intending – intending) then start walking (left – right …). When there’s others object that dominant raise on that time, we have to stop immediately and focus on the other object and make the mental notes until it gone by it self, then start walking again. For example Continue reading Walking Meditation
It’s been a while I didn’t write my experiences here. Now I will start again. On the 13th of June I join another vipassana meditation. This time was for 10 days intensive. It was at Brahma Vihara Arama at Banjar, Singaraja. The last time I joined the three days retreat but I still want to know more. I didn’t get it yet about the technique correctly. So … more silent baby …
Donny my future brother in law kindly took me there. With Luna we ride about 3 hours … a little bit lost … but we’ve get there safely. After Luna and her uncle leave me there I started to prepare my self. We got room for two. At first I was put with a nice old lady. But then I swapped to another room alone. While waiting the opening ceremony at 7pm I enjoy the place and talk a bit with some new yogi. It was a very nice place to meditate. Big garden for walking meditation, a stupa with a hall inside it for the sitting meditation, and a small gazebo for afternoon sitting meditation. I can only enjoy the view on the first day and later on the last day. So I walked around and see around to found out some interesting places to explore.
It was about 40 yogis join the retreat, local and foreigner. The teacher was a monk from Myanmar We will have Dhamma talk and interview from and with the teacher take turn each day. I was so excited about this retreat. I know that I will make it and get something from it.
On the retreat we need to wear loose white top and dark sarong on the bottom. We started the day at 4 and finish at 9.30. Begin with walking meditation then continue with sitting meditation and so on. We had breakfast at 6-7 and continue with free time for shower and doing laundry, lunch at 11-12 and tea time at 5. Any other activity beside the walking and sitting meditation was daily activity meditation. So we meditate from once we opened our eyes till it closed.
After the opening ceremony we start the noble silent for 10 days. No talking, no eye contact. Full concentration and focus to our self. After this I will share my experiences each on walking meditation, sitting meditation, on daily activity, on the Dhamma talk, interview time and sleeping time. So stay tune …